It stresses me to have to give Mama so much medicine. But I can't let her be in pain. She is also suffering from so much anxiety. But no wonder. Everything about her is changing. She is in pain, she can't move around or do anything for herself. It all goes against the way she has always been. She has been the one to do for everybody else and it is still her instinct. She worries about us, that we will be put out by her, that we can't talk without her in the room, things like that. None of it is true but it is hard for her.
Olivia will soon be here and that will be good for Mama, even if briefly. Any of the children make her happy.
Next weekend we will be able to see all of the girls. Leah has a dance recital and we are going. Joe and Judy are coming to stay with Mama. I am so thankful they will be able to stay with her. We can't leave her with just one person anymore. Or I feel like I can't.
In the midst of caring for Mama I find I am able to write. Even if it is snippets, words are getting on paper and the computer screen. Writing and art have saved me.
1 comment:
I have a strokee mother and she's now cannot do things for herself for about 27 months already. This is similiar to you mother situation where she used to do alot of things for others and not the other way round. Unfortunately she is only 60 when she attacked by stroke. I pray for your strenghts and the entire family especialy your mother.
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